This is my CREDO

i'm broke

2009-08-01T07:13:00.000-07:00

i'm broke or perhaps we're broke.
my dad just lost his job. T_T
now what?
i do not know what to do and i can only think of one reason to help my dad and my family that is to earn in BLOGGING.
i've been trying to do this way back highschool and yet, i just took everything for granted.
Now that we are broke i think that this would be a good experience to make me realize and inspire me to write in m blog.

I will be starting now.

diet to the nth time

2009-07-25T19:55:00.000-07:00

i really do not know how to start this....
i am so random.
i've been trying to lose weight for years!!!!
i started way back in my elementary.
haaay... you could just imagine how depressed i am
i have tried lots of methods to lose weight and
yeah i have been losing weight but i am not able to
maintain it. geeezzz!!!!! i hated it!!!
i cannot understand my metabolism..
grrrrrr...
now i am planning to go back on my fruit diet
however, i want to inculcate fitrum and fit and right
yeah i also do some exercise daily.

i hope this works... i want to lose 40 lbs of weight
in a month...

i just wanted to be slim before my 18th bday. :(

YAMAN GENSAN 2009

2009-07-06T05:43:00.000-07:00

a friend of mine wants me to link this... so here it is. :D

YAMAN GENSAN 2009

aspiring doctor in need

2009-06-10T08:11:00.000-07:00

it's been decades since i made a post here. geez. i'm really lazy. I really wanted to put up a blog "a real earning blog" but then again i am too lazy.... I may be determined today then eventually i relapse, soo frustrating. i want to earn, i want to help my parents, i want to save money for my future in med school ( huh! as if i would be able to go). Darn it! i'm desperate i really want to go to a medschool. yeah i know it's too early to think about it since i'm a 2nd yr nursing student but i just want to vent out how i want to become a doctor so badly! I wanna be Dr. Jenny D. Pagaduan. the problem is.... right now, i know and i am sure that my parents cannot afford to send me to medschool especially not here in davao. i wanna study in manila or outside the country preferably in a good and prestigous school wherein i am assured that i will have the best education and would mold me into the best doctor that i can be. Another thing, though i know i have the intellect, i am not sure if i have the attitude. I am a sloth! i hate studying, which i know is a must as if i will enter medschool. But i am trying as hard as i can to study. hehe. no i actually don't try as hard yet. but i am still able to be in the dean's list with my habit. however, i know i can do a way lot better and i know my best asset is my reading habits. i love to read and information easily become inculcated into my brain's frontal lobe :D. damn it! i never wanted anything like this before! it's my dream! it's my goal as student to finish medicine. Another problem, if ever given a chance, i want to be a pediatrician or an ob-gyne or a surgeon! i can't choose between the 3. But i really wanna be a surgeon!! (i am just afraid)

Frankly speaking, i just wanna vent out my thoughts for today and if ever someone who can help me achieve my dreams found this post... Please please help me.. i have 2 yrs left in my "pre med course"(i guess) and i am desperate for any scholarships available and sponsorships. please please... ahhh geezzz... it's my first time to beg like this... so please help me... contact me (pagaduanjenny@yahoo.com.ph)... please?

improve cramming study habits

2009-02-04T13:48:00.000-08:00

I wanted to blog something about studying right now because i have an exam in anatomy today and what the hell i am doing, when i am suppose to be studying now :D. hahaha How i am i suppose to inculcate the muscular,nervous,sensory and endocrine system in to my brain? haha easy. let me share my tips.

1. wake up early

i mean if you know you have a quiz or an exam the next day and you are very lazy to study the night before or weeks before(which is very true to me :D) wake up early. 3-4 hours ahead of time. Since they say our brain is fresh hahah after we woke up, information and data will be easily injected into our frontal lobe :D haha.

2. don't force yourself

if you don't want to study, well don't. simple as that. haha.. in psychology we have this principle of "Law of readiness" our brain would not function well if your are not in the condition to study. Forcing yourself would just give you head ache and its just a waste of time.

3. Condition yourself first

in relation to my 2nd tip, you must condition yourself first before you start studying. if you want to sleep before studying then go ahead. just make sure you don't abuse your time. :D. hahah

4. Don't panic

students usually panic for the fact that they did not study for a quiz or exam. (haha but not for me. i actually laugh it all off. ) guys, be calm. if you have not studied, well have faith with your stocked knowledge. if none, (haha) take a peek with your notes before the quiz or exam will start. refresh the concepts you've learned.

5. Listen

just listen to the teacher whenever she/he is teaching and everything will go on your way. you don't really have to study if you knew and understood the concepts and no need for cramming study habits :D

haha. i wish it would be effective for you :D coz it's really good for me. listen just listen. i just listen to my teacher whenever she/he teach us something even if i don't like the teacher, i just listen. That's why i don't worry if i did not study for an exam or quiz. hahaha...

bakit may mga babaeng pakipot?

2009-01-20T02:59:00.000-08:00

haha. eto na counterpart ng article ko about sa mga lalaking torpe.

mga babae, bakit nga ba tayo pakipot?

oo na meron naman hindi pakipot, pero para sa mga nagpapaMaria Clara dyan, bakit nga ba tayo pakipot?(ahah isali niyo na ako no bf since birth ako eh) hahaha

unang naiisip ko bakit may mga babaen pakipot ay dahil sa TAKOT. madaming dahilan bakit sila natatakot, isa na ang takot silang malaman ng mga magulang nila na may boyfriend sila kasi bawal pa at strict daw ang parents nila. Pwede rin yung takot sila sa commitment. natatakot ang ibang babae na baka hindi nila makayanan ang magkaroon ng isang relationship. Isa pang dahilan ng takot, ay ang pain. Takot ang ibang babae na baka magbreak lng din sila ng boyfriend niya in the end. Takot rin ang iba na bumaba ang grado nila dahil sa boyfriend. May natatakot din sa kantsaw ng iba at marami pang dahilan para sa TAKOT. bsta ang unang dahilan ay ang TAKOT.

pangalawa, may mga babaeng pakipot kasi naman di nila gusto yung lalaki(period). hahahah. oo na, magka-aminan na. minsan kasi ayaw manakit ng kapwa ng isang babae kaya ang mas masakit, nagpapakipot(kunwari) ang babae at ang kawawang lalaki umaasa naman sa wala.

Pangatlo, mag-mamadre ata tong mga babaeng ito kaya sobrang pakipot. hahahah

Pag-apat, OA lng talaga sila. ayaw kasi nila masabihan na "easy-to-get" sila. kaya ayun nagpapakipot. naman oh, kung gusto mo ang lalaki, edi sagutin mo na. huwag mo ng palampasin ang pagkakataon sis.

yung lng ang mga naisip ko na dahilan bakit may mga babaeng pakipot. ewan ko ba wala talagang kwenta ang utak ko ngayon. pasensya na :D hehehe

gugmang giatay

2009-01-11T07:17:00.000-08:00

yati ra.

Am I really falling???

"I do believe i am falling for him but he doesn't bother catching me."

This must be stopped. grrr... He is a tumor that slowly occupies a huge space in my hypothalamus. oh gahd! I never met him, I never talked to him on the phone but why why am i falling for him? He diverts my focus from my academics to his stupid lies. My life has gone in shambles!!

However with him as my so-called inspiration,(Is he really my inspiration? i don't think so). my 2009 started good. i mean really good :D i got the highest grades in my class in almost all the subjects, not to brag but this truth still didn't sink in my brain. I can't believe it with my zero study habit i could actually be on top. weee... *nuff said for that

With that start i don't want to ruin it anymore. I don't want him to be the reason why i am degrading in my academics. therefore i must get a grip i must hold on whatever it takes. *sigh* easy for me to tell. I tried before to build a wall between our communication and yet i am still the one who kept on climbing that wall to check him on the other side. What the hell is happening to me? It's torturing me! My world is so f*ucked up. I need moderation, balance and discipline! and oh another thing i gained weight during the break. shi*t. i'm on diet again. geezz.

(I just realized these three songs that consecutively played in my pc reminds me of him. coincidence maybe?)

i know i know my post is random. my thoughts are shuffled. i know i had grammatical errors and typos . but the what hell am i doing now when i am suppose to be creating my report in CRISTOLOGY.

can someone help me? this GUGMANG GIATAY kills me T_T.

resolution anyone?

2009-01-03T01:06:00.001-08:00

so it's 2009 already.

who's up for another set of constant struggle, failure, success, love and life?
yeah i guess everybody is (as if we have another choice).
But before you start your engines and travel the road of 2009, have you ever packed-up your 2008?
well me, i guess. yeah. sort of. i'm not really dwelling with my past but instead i pack up the lessons of 2008 to feed me as i travel toward the end of 2009.

pero wait....
anong balak naten sa 2009?

resolutions. resolutions. every year i had a list of it [a long list] but then wth! it's good as one day promise to myself. haha. that's why i quit making resolutions 4 yrs ago. New year's resolution as defined by wikipedia as a reforming of a habit. Well that's good enough. We subject ourselves to a change, a change for a better being. But a new year's resolution is a commitment that takes effect on new year. We constantly say to ourselves, " ngayong year di na ako ganito, di ko na gagawin yun, magiging ganito na ako, pagbubutihan ko ang ganyan, ganun. blah blah." . You cannot say " dahil new year na di nako magiging ganun." that's bullsh*t change does not happen with just a mouthful of words. CHANGE IS A GRADUAL PROCESS. it needs acceptance, time and you have to cherish it. In my case i cannot dictate myself that today i have to start my new year resolution. no! i am just pretending to myself that i did it, but in fact i kept on repeating the mistakes i have done before. Ok maybe in some cases you can keep your resolutions for a week or so but eventually you'll get tired of it. i mean wake up! do not set a change now but instead set a goal that eventually changes you within the process of reaching your goal. What i mean with the goal is that it has to be reachable it must benefit you or others. let me state an example. a girl says, " mag-aaral na ako ng mabuti starting ngayon ". predict what will happen next............

the girl grew tired of it because she kept on studying without any to look forward to. But then if you say that, " dapat 95 makuha ko ngayong sem " atleast you have something to strive for, something to reach. It can also be " dapat makabili ako ng laptop " instead of saying " magtitipid na ako ngayon ". Get it guys? i am not telling that you trash those new year resolution of yours but give more clarity with your vague so-called resolutions. be more REALISTIC. well that's the bottom line.

wahaha... i know my post is quite random but i just wanted to vent out my thoughts for today. those are just my opinions, no hard feelings everyone. [i wonder who that everyone is]. :P

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Dr. Preston Burke wedding vow

2009-01-01T14:56:00.000-08:00

“Christina, I could promise to hold you and to cherish you. I could promise to be there in sickness and in health. I could say ’till death do us part. But I won’t. Those vows are for optimistic couples. The ones full of hope. And I do not stand here, on my wedding day, optimistic or full of hope. I am not optimistic, I am not hopeful. I am sure, I am steady, and I know. I am a heart man: I take them apart, I put them back together. I hold them in my hands. I am a heart man. So this, I am sure. You are my partner, my lover, my very best friend. My heart, my heart, beats for you. And on this day, the day of my wedding, I promise you this: I promise you to lay my heart in the palm of your hand. I promise you ME.”

the very first time i was hearing this, i, i thought my heart skipped a beat. damn it! is there a Dr. Preston Burke out there????????? i really cannot explain what i felt, oh right it was just in tv (grey's anatomy) but to imagine that a man would actually say that to you on your wedding day or even not on your wedding day is ... whoa! he's freaking way too romantic! grrrr.. i am drooling! haha. but you know all girls would definitely wanted to hear that or something like that which really came from the heart of the man they truly love. it's really different something very intimate something that could melt a girl's heart, something that would leave their brains screaming out in love something that could set them drooling a hundred buckets of blood. hehe.. but i tell you what the sad thing is boys like those are RARE i mean damn rare!! and most of all, it was just script written and the head writer of grey's anatomy is a lady! how lame. why is it girls are more romantic than boys???

would you agree to me??? or perhaps not. comment me :D

tao po. andyan po ba si hustisya?

2008-12-28T04:20:00.000-08:00

Ang kasama kong blogger eh may binigay na url sa akin. Ang akala ko wala lng, tiningnan ko rin naman. Dangg! eto pala yung nasa balita nung isang araw. Yung mayor at Dar sec. na nasangkot sa isang eskandalo. Binasa ko yung buong ARTIKULO. Doon ko nalaman ang buong istorya. Naman oh naman! bakit ganito??? bakit? asan ang hustisya. Ano bang ikinatatakot ng golf club? porket mga politiko sila at ordinaryong tao lng ang nabiktima eh di na nila tutulungan yung nagigipit. tae nila! sabi sa balita iniimbestigahan pa daw. oh? isang malaking kalokohan! bakit pa? golf club niyo yan di niyo alam ang nangyari. walang kwenta. at sa mga politiko, umayos nga kayo. Mga feeling kase. eh ano ngayon kung di namin kau kilala. bakit kilala niyo ba kami? wahaha. quits lang. wag kayong hambog jan. "PUBLIC SERVANT" ang tawag sa inyo! in tagalog "PAMPUBLIKONG ALIPIN" alipin kau ok? kaya wag kayong umastang kung sino.

Humihingi rin ako ng panalangin na nasa mabigyan ng hustisya ang nangyari sa DELA PAZ family.

isang matinding banat!

2008-12-01T00:24:00.001-08:00

ano ba? d pa ba kayo napapagod?eh ano ngayon kng uno ka?grado ba ang sukatan ng talino?ang eskwelahan ba ang nagmamarka ng estado mo sa akademya ng pilinas?eh ano ngayon kung yan ang norms ng society.ba't pa ba kailangan ipagsigawan sa buong mundo na ganito ako. ayun angmga na-achieve ko? ano ngayon napala mo? wala.isa pa bakit pa ba natin pinoproblema ang problema ng iba kung mismongtayo may problema na di natin malutas-lutas. mag-isip muna kaya tayo.kung gusto nating tumulong. tulungan muna natin sarili natin. dahilwalang kwenta rin ang tulong niyo kung kalahati lng ang maiibigay mo.simpleng paalala pero tagos.

huling banat. ang sumulat nito ay wala lang. hahahaha joke lng :D
epekto ng holiday!!! maligayang pasko!! dec. 1 na!

oh. oh! ang magbibigay ng bayolenteng reaction ay tinamaan. hahahaha

Bakit may mga lalakeng torpe????

2008-11-18T03:24:00.000-08:00

Paggising ko kaninang umaga sumagi sa isip ko ang salitang torpe. Ewan ko lang kung bakit sa lahat ng salita na maiisip ko eh torpe pa ang unang pumasok sa kokote ko. Kaya ayun napaisip tuloy ako at nagmuni-muni hanggang sa biglang nagtanong ang utak ko kung bakit ba may mga lalaking torpe? OO nga noh. bakit nga ba? At dahil sa hindi ako mapakali at gustong-gusto kong malaman ang sagot tinanong ko ang mga kaklase kong lalake. Kahit na walang kwenta ang sagot ng iba, may iba rin namang matino parin ang pag-iisip. Kaya naman nakasummarize ako ng tatlong matitinding dahilan kung bakit natotorpe ang lalaki. (nga pala ang torpe ay ang pagkaduwag at pagiging mahiyain sa gusto mong babae)

Una: REJECTION

Natotorpe ang mga kalalakihan sa isang babae dahil natatakot silang ma-busted. (aminin niyo na) Takot kasi sila na ma-reject. Takot silang masabihan na "Sorry, may gusto na akong iba." o di kaya'y "Sorry, you're not my type". hahaha(brutal ang pangalawa). Ganito lng yan mga torpe, huwag kayong matakot na di tanggapin ng babae ang pagmamahal ninyo sa kaniya dahil "It's not your loss, It's hers". Magisip-isip naman kayo, ikaw na nga tong nag-aalok ng pagmamahal, eh ikaw pa tong tinatanggihan. Kaya move on. Hanap lng ng iba :D. Oo alam kong masakit pero mas mabuti na yon kaysa naman lumalim pa pag-ibig mo sa kanya tapos marereject ka. Eh yun ang mas masakit.

Sa kabilang banda paghinarap niyo naman ang takot niyong ma-reject at aminin sa kanya ang nararamdaman mo, eh malay niyo magustuhan din pala kayo ng girl o kaya bigyan kayo ng chance. Ang saya diba? hahaha kaya ganun lng yun, "Huwag na kayong magduwag-duwagan".

Pangalawa: WORTHLESSNESS

Unang-unsa sa lahat, ang salitang WORTHLESSNESS ay inimbento ko lang kaya wag na kayong kumuha ng dictionary at hanapin ang salitang yan dahil magsasayang lng kayo ng lakas.

Oo worthlessness, may mga lalake kasi na feeling nila hindi sila worth it para sa babae. Gaya nalang ng mayaman siya mahirap lng kami o kaya matalino siya, bobo kasi ako. Hay nako, why don't you give yourself a chance? yun lang yun. Pano ka mamahalin o bibigyan ng tsansa ng babae kung mismo ikaw iniisip mong wala kang K-W-E-N-T-A! Ayusin niyo muna self-esteem niyo bago kayo humarap sa pinakamamahal niyo. Cheer up! konting encouragement lang ang kailangan niyo. Kaya huwag na huwag kayong magsasayang ng panahon na kakaisip na hindi kayo deserving para sa kanya. Dahil baka malay niyo parehas lng kayo ng nararamdaman, naghihintay lng xa.

Pangatlo: DOUBT

Eto ang pinakamatinding rason bakit natotorpe ang isang lalaki sa babae. hahaha. Natotorpe ka sa kanya dahil hindi ka naman talaga sigurado kung mahal mo nga siya. tsk3. "Kindly check your heartbeat mister loverboy". hahaha. Kung natotorpe ka, samakatuwid eh nagdadalawang isip ka. Nako alisin niyo ang ganyan mentality. Dapat kasi kung mahal mo siya ng tunay di ka na magdadalawang isip pa na sabihin sa kanya ang tunay mong nararamdaman. Kahit na masaktan ka man, ayos lng naman iyon diba? bsta napaalam mo na sa kanya ang nararamdaman mo. Kung di ka niya gusto eh pakawalan mo siya hahayaan mong hanapin niya ang tunay niyang kaligayahan. Pakawalan mo rin ang sarili mo sa bigat ng nararamdaman mo at baunin mo lng ang pagmamahal mo sa kanya.

Ganito lng yan kung kayo talaga, kayo talaga! It's just physics, laging nagkakalapit ang north at ang south kasi compatible opposite sides sila at sila talaga ang dapat. diba?

P.S.

Sa mga lalake, huwag din naman kasi kayong tumutok lng sa isang babae. Kung nabusted kayo hanap ng iba kung nakamove-on na(at pls bilis bilisan niyo. hahah). eh kasi madaming babae diyan na handang makinig at magmahal sa inyo. Andyan lng sila sa tabi niyo. Maniwala na kayo sa akin dahil pagsinabi kong andyan lng sila, andyan lng talaga sila. huwag na kayong magbulag-bulagan. hahaha.

Pahabol:

Sa mga kaklase kong lalake na umangal sa pangatlo kong rason, nirevise ko na po yan kaya wag na kayong makipagdebate sa akin. ang sasama ninyo. hahaha.

Happy Birthday to me

2008-11-12T02:44:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday to me!

hahaha i'm already 17!! A year more and I'll be 18! THE LEGAL AGE. well uhm I'm celebrating my birthday alone since I am currently living in a boarding house. Quite sad *sniff* 'coz it's my first time. Since I know that most of the college students are having a life away from their family, are celebrating their birthdays alone. I want to share tips how to celebrate alone. :D

tip no. 1

Take pictures!

yeah yeah it's quite hilarious but hey! it's your birthday, won't you want some remembrance to reminisce your birthday with you celebrating it alone? hahaha i'm sure you'd bring out huge smile on your face as you look on your pictures and to remember celebrating alone is not sad at all.

tip no. 2

Indulge your self into anything you like

If you can't have what you want everyday, give this day a break. oh c'mon today is your birthday! go and celebrate. In my case it's food :D. When it's not my birthday I'm on a diet, but today is the day when i was born, so I spoil myself to spaghetti and chocolates :D weee. So go for it! do it now! it's only a day :D

p.s. make sure you saved money to avoid financial crisis. hahaha

tip no. 3

Go Announce your Birthday!

It's really nice to see people's reaction to be shocked that you actually announced your birthday but they eventually end up greeting you anyway. haha. Greetings are huge factors that contribute happiness on your special day, you'll soon realize the more greetings you had the happier you are :D Oh yeah right as filipinos, when we know it's someone's b-day we tend to ask for a treat from the celebrant, but you could always say i'm bankrupt hahahaha.

tip no. 4

Buy yourself a gift

We experience situations that we wanted buy something that we've always like but we restrict yourself since it is quite costy; *pause and think* but the fact you can afford it then go for it! It's not bad to sometimes reward yourself for surviving a year of constant struggle on earth. Today is your day my dear, so make the best out of it!

tip no. 5

Reflect

Ofcourse, after surviving another year why don't you reflect to the things you have done, accomplished. Things that failed you and what you wanted to do this new year of yours. Always remember to thank the Lord for all the blessings and guidance he has given to you and keep your faith to him strong as always :D

As long as everything you do is good and nobody will be hurt, go for your happiness! anyway, it's your birthday!

There is also an article regarding how to celebrate your birthday created by my former classmate and currently my blogmate :D I'm sure you'll like this to. here's the link:

http://patricioelsuplado.blogspot.com/2008_08_01_archive.html

twilight saga

2008-10-31T05:33:00.000-07:00

Yey! I just finished the last book in twilight saga created by stephenie meyer.
So happy :D I just can't get the hell out of it. The series was very obsessive.
Bows to Stephenie for creating such a wonderful book. I just can't help falling inlove
to EDWARD CULLEN. hahaha and I envy Bella Swan Y_Y. hahaha.

Book 1: Twilight

Where the love story of Edward Cullen and Bella Swan started. Let me say, I really admire the love ofEdward to Bella. It was true, unconditional and very passionate. Bella on the otherhand was also truly inlove to Edward and I like her bravery to love a vampire. Two thumbs up to the author for having a different description for a vampire. Very unique, i love it.

Book 2: Newmon

A very devastating break up between the main characters. Edward left Bella and here goes Jacob the knight and shining armor who brought Bella back to life :D hahaa lol. The werewolves were also presented here, the mortal enemy of the vampires. The twist is Jacob is one of them. I found this book quite boring though. I hated it 'coz 3/4's of the book is about Jacob and Bella. hehehe. But the main characters had been together again at the last part. Their love for each other is very strong that they would die for each other. How sweet. :P

Book 3: Eclipse

I just really love this book. Very passionate, very enticing, very erotic :D hahaha. True, I just love this book. Since the book is not available to my ever favorite book store, National Book Store (hehehe), I printed a pdf file of the book :D (But I would still buy a book if it would be available). One thing I hated in the story is that Bella is inlove with Jacob!!!! grrr... poor edward. Though she loves Edward more, she is still inlove with Jacob. They even have a part where Bella asked Jacob to kiss her just to plead him to comeback after the fight. grrrr. Jacob took advantage of it and when Edward found about it, well i fell inlove with him more for being such a gentleman and being happy with bella's happiness. I wish boys would be like him too. :D

Book 4: Breaking Dawn

Bella and Edward got married!!! weee.. They even had a daughter, Renesmee. I am happy that Bella finally became a vampire too :D. They lived happily forever. hahahaha. This book is well uhm thrilling especially the climax. hahaha. I felt I was there too. Uhm I have to admit, i cried during the farewell part between edward and bella to their daughter. They thought it was over and they would die. My tears flowed as i was reading it T_T.

My Evaluation:

The series is often compared to the best selling witchcraft and wizardry series, Harry Potter. Well all I can say is, these two books are different. Yet, if i would uhm evaluate the plot of the story, it lacked actions, more the talking and it's quite redundant. But it's just my opinion. I still love the series :D

P.S. I can't wait for the movie!!! This coming November 21, 2008.

whoah!

2008-10-01T08:10:00.000-07:00

i haven't been posting lately.
i had such a tiring week.
and i mean super tiring!!!
more than over fatigue.
haha...

so let me start it this way.
for almost 2 weeks i've been practicing
for the formal cheering competition
and i have been arriving home late.
mostly 12 midnight.
for 2 weeks of constant 6 hrs practice.
really sucks!
i won't join cheering again. grrr....
Intramurals wasn't fun for me due to this
practices. grrrr..

well. i could say our performance really suck!!
i swear. we committed major mistakes and we weren't
that syncronized. ewww!!!! nakakahiya talaga kami!
luckily we placed 2nd. whew!

the last day of intrams is really well uhm. superb.
HALE!!!! i love champ!!! weeee.....
well. that's it.
i can't tell anymore. hahah
words are running out of my mind...
haha.. i'm just blank. hahah

confusion takes me over. (twilight saga)

2008-09-07T03:17:00.000-07:00

Ok. i sort of pormised? or posted a week ago that i'll create a review about twilight.(what's the point? no one's reading my blog anyway.) well, back to the topic, ahm im sort of not in the mood. Besides I don't want to spoil the fun of reading plus i am really confused now. Actually i already finished reading twilight and new moon and i am currently hooked reading the first chapter of eclipse which is a part of the book, new moon, as a sneak preview. Well i'm still in doubt if i should continue reading eclipse on my copy from the internet. I prefer buying a copy of the book and reading it lying rather that sitting. My head just spins wildly when i stare too much on the monitor. One thing that keeps me anxious is that i'll be taking my midterm exams tomorrow! and yet i haven't studied any. I am really hopeless. I could see edward and bella when i try to study. So as my solution to my hallucinations. Perhaps i would just finish this first chapter on eclipse then i'm off to studying. wish me luck! haha

LOVE

2008-09-04T03:39:00.000-07:00

Love. a troublesome feeling right?
i guess we already know what love is.
But do we know how to love?
Do we really know what perfect love means?

We really had a very interesting topic in psychology class today.
EMOTIONS. We had a debate "Love and Fear can we feel them both at the same time?"

think about it,.
have you ever felt that i love somebody yet i am afraid to lose that someone.

Each and everyone in the class has to choose their stand. Whether to agree or not to agree to the question. I chose not to agree. I firmly believed that Love and Fear can't be felt by someone at the same time. As the debate went on, the affirmative pointed out their side that you feel love in the beginning then there's a fear that overlaps or perhaps coincides with it. Yes, they've got a point. We answered back, what's the first thing you felt? isn't it love? However they rebutted, as the fear coincided, we felt it both at the same time. But we argued, it is a cause-and-effect. You love the person then the effect you feel fear if the person leaves you right? The affirmative side, cited an example that i love my parents that is why i fear to lose them, they questioned us that, " aren't we afraid to lose someone we love?" We answered back. NO. Another question from them, if you feel love then you feel the fear, does that mean the love stopped? We answered YES. we were actually losing the battle, even our teacher was arguing against us, the negative side. So I gave the final statement for our side and my classmate gave their final stament to the positive side.

Then our teacher discussed.

"LOVE AND FEAR CANNOT BE FELT AT THE SAME TIME."

Yes! we were right, but our teacher wasn't impressed with our arguements. *sniff*

LOVE and FEAR are two different emotions afterall.
If you feel fear of losing someone you love, it just means that you didn't feel love to him/her from the very first place. You love the person for the sake of loving since the person gives you what you wish or fulfills something in your life that you need not what you lack of. To get to the point, let me define what is unconditional love. It's very basic, loving the person without asking for anything in return at all. You're afraid to lose the someone you love since you love the person? Definitely it's a false. You feared to lose the person you love cause the person has something you liked or wanted and you're afraid to lose it. That is being selfish. If you love someone, have you ever thought of reasons why you love him/her? If you can think of some, therefore it's not LOVE. Because when that reasons disappear would you still love that person? No is the answer. These reasons are somewhat comparable to strings; if these strings will be cut, your attachment to the person will definitely diminish. However, if you love a person and you do not know why, that is what you can call real LOVE. Since there are no reasons why you love the person, definitely there's no reason of fearing to lose the love and the person itself. When you love someone, LOVE THEM not for being who they are but FOR WHAT THEY CANNOT BECOME. A perfect love as described by my teacher is not because we have the same likes, dislikes, etc. and not because we are different upon everything. A perfect love is filling the lacking part of the person and the person fills what you lack of. When you love someone hold him/her loosely and when that person wants to leave, let go of him/her. That is love, letting the person you truly love find its true happiness.

my twilight infatuation

2008-08-31T01:23:00.000-07:00

like oh---eeemmm---geee!!!
i can't live without it!

ok fine i was exagerrating :P

hey! the book TWILIGHT by Stephenie Meyer was really exalted. impressive. splendid! and my god its really getting into my hypothalamus!!!!! weeeee... i feel inlove really inlove right now :D
wohooo!!! i want edward .hahahahha i wish i was bella :D hahahha i would really allow edward to bit me if he has to :D i wouldn't care at all. hahahaha...

so i haven't finished reading the book.grrrr. my science report is bugging me all the time. i can't concentrate reading.bullsh*t. So if i'm finshed reading the book, which is probably a few hours from now, i might create a review of that book :D hahaha... i loved it! i'm planning to buy the next book, NEW MOON. can't wait to have it :D

bubble gum!

2008-08-29T05:30:00.000-07:00

I WILL NEVER EVER EAT BUBBLE GUM AGAIN!!!!

wait errr. let me think again......

NOO!!! i can't do it. ahahahahaha
i was just kidding :D hahahah

psychology!!! my ever favorite subject.
we had an activity yesterday regarding problem-solving.
we were tasked to bring bubble gums and match sticks as many as we can.
i had already figured it out before that we'll construct something out of those.
"Construct a house with a dimension of 5x3x5 in 5 minutes" whattt?????????
Perhaps my teacher was insane??? how are we suppose to create a house with that dimension with that short period of time???? then eventually we started. hahaahaha...
ewww! we have to chew the bubble gum first! it was a requirement! hahahah..... my classmate said " padamakanay nalang ta ani ron!" hahaha it was really disgusting! seeing the saliva? ewww!!! then we have to paste it on the match stick??? It was worst than crawling on the mud!
"times up!" my teacher even said before the time "you are not able to finish that better clean up your mess. " hahaha... we were not able to do anything. we got ZERO out of TWENTY like what we always get. hahahah it was too late when she said that we can use the boxes of our match sticks since its part of our materials. Yeah she got a point there! we were not really thinking. *sniff* oh well. that's part of history already...

lesson learned: THINK! and don't eat bubble gum. yuck! hahaha...

p.s. it was fun though :D hehehe

Sudden remorse

2008-08-22T22:38:00.000-07:00

"Things get worse" it's true. I woke up today very happy but then i suppose i'll sleep in grief. Thanks to my high school batchmates; they gave me this wierd feeling of excitement then grief. It just simply shows we didn't had the unity as a section. oh well. that's part of life :D I wish we will have the chance to bond since we're already in different colleges. i hate to compare but i'm already loving my current cirlce of classmates. we had this strong bond and unity though we're only 3 months aquainted. IV-ABAD SANTOS i really miss you all :D

photography part ii

2008-07-28T02:48:00.000-07:00

I'm very hooked to photography and editing! trying hard masyado ako (boo!)hahahahaha....

photography

2008-07-27T07:04:00.001-07:00

I am a trying hard photographer. though i don't have the digital camera.(geez! i wish it was fixed!) still, i have my phone to accompany me in my struggle! hahahaha. well anyways. i had some picture taken. (i love candid shots.) err. i still edited them in photoshop. tell me what you think or you can give me some tips!! i am very much pleased with it :D thank you in advance!

Title: The joy of life

Taken: Magsaysay park, 9:00 am, July 28, 2008

Models: BSN-1N

Title: Black and Blue façade

Taken: Magsaysay park (seawall), 9:00 am, July 28, 2008

Models: BSN-1N

Title: A helping hand

Taken: Magsaysay Park(seawall), 9:00 am, July 28, 2008

Models: Aileen Alug and Clarisse Sanchez

Title: His Fictitious Utopia

Taken: Gaisano Mall of DAvao(under Gerry's Grill), 8:30 pm, June 25, 2008

Model: Jeremiah Caballero

how lucky i am

2008-07-22T05:54:00.000-07:00

haven't you realize how lucky we are to be able to live freely in this world?????????

me? I already did.

I thank the Lord for giving me this opportunity. :D It started when i looked for signs and symptoms of leukemia. ( i thought i had) when i opened a certain article related to leukemia.
It was about the hairy leukemia etc.. then it cited an event that happened around 1970's

DAVID THE BOY WHO LIVED IN A PLASTIC BUBBLE.

I started to search about him. i was curious.
he was born with SCID, Severe Combined Immune Deficiency . or he was like born without an immune system.
from the time he was born, he was immediately placed in a plastic bubble.
the air inside it was filtered air, and everything in it was sterilized.
for 12 years, he lived inside a plastic bubble.
yes he could play with his friends but rather he was still isolated inside the bubble.
as he grew older, his psychologist can observe him being very angry at his situation. and wouldn't tell his feelings anymore to anyone.
Well, what can you expect? living very isolated from everyone else is very depressing.

Living all your entire life away from germs.
Living all your entire life as the research subject for the mad scientists?
Living all our life following very strict guidelines and procedures?
Living your entire life without even experiencing hugging your family?
David lived all but the last few weeks of his life without ever having human contact
It's very pathetic.

yet David courageously fought for his life for 12 years in the bubble.
in pictures, you could see in his eyes how lonely, sad, depressed and alone he was.
he was so (i can't think of a right term). I wish i could and comforted him in his melancholy and anxiety.
I wish i could and created something for him. But i believe he is happy right now up above.
David lived from 1971-1984.

having read about his life, i was dumbstruck!
i was so numb not even realizing how lucky i am!
i can live my life to the fullest!
i can still recall that david's last wish was to drink a coke
and that wasn't even allowed.
i am very greatful for the blessings and this life God has given to me.
And i really recommend you to read his lifestory and realize how beautiful life is!

sites:

http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/amex/bubble/peopleevents/p_vetter.html
http://nyam.org/news/2649.html
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/David_Vetter

ay nako.

2008-06-27T05:54:00.000-07:00

pumunta ako sa aking alma mater.
things went fine until somebody arrived.
I don't know who s/he is. and i don't care!
get lost! p**a masyado ka!
feeler! eh ano ngayon kung masyadong
mataas ang position mo sa org na iyon?
nya madato ka ana?
murag si kinsa! kala mo sinong magaling!
BOGO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ka!!!!!!!!!!!!!
as if ginadibdib ang mga natun.an niya sa org.
pa-feeler lang diay ang habol! pakamatay beh!
laos ka na! gets mo? LAOS ka na? yeah me too.
pero wag mo nang pilitin! gurang ka na please!
oh come on! ka-cheapan yang ginagawa mo!
bwisit na organization! iba ang naituturo!
wala bang maayos dyan??????????????
or baka mga BOGO lang jud sila!

ganito kasi yun. i was giving advices, den s/he interrupted!
ang putek! wala daw koi right!!!!!!!!!!!!
mas wala kay right!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

di lang sana i-remember yung mga rules and regulations
but as well as yung mga values! courteous pa naman dapat!
the org is not talking about sa pa-astig!
have respect please!!!!!!!!!
nirespeto kita kahit di kita kilala!
kailangan ba dapat na every generation, kilala ka nila?
oh my god! please!
matuto kang lumugar!
wala jud koi labot nimo!
libaki jud ko sa akong atubangan! pota ka!
bastos ka masyado ba!
sana inisip mo muna yung ginawa mo.
para wala kang nasaktan.
hindi naman yan siguro tinuro ng parents mo na manakit ng tao!
please lang jud.

I

2008-06-17T07:32:00.000-07:00

describe myself starting with I.

I am god-fearing
I am happpy
I am bored
I am angry
I am a student
I am at SPC
I am living alone
I am a rover scout
I am a writer
I am photoshop addict
I am a narcissist
I am drop-dead gorgeous
I was just kiddin'
I am goofy
I am stupid
I am adventurous
I love nature
I love music
I play the piano
I play the guitar
I play the flute
I play the xylophone
I wish to play the drums
I love c2 lite
I have them stocked
I am artistic
I belive nothing of it
I was just trying to be humble hahaha
I love reading books
I learn from it
I want you to read "the giver by lois lowry"
I also want you to read " tuesdays with morrie by mitch albom."
I'm sure you won't regret!
I am online 24/7.
I am running out of words.
I am sure you didn't understand.
I am feeling nothing about it.
I was sure you think this is a crap
I don't care about it.
I just wanna thank you for reading this.
I'm sorry for taking much of your time.
I'll be happy if you also read the article beneath this.
I am so............

know me.

2008-06-17T07:17:00.000-07:00

Me??
What about me??
* i already posted this before. it was quite long... but i made it even longer now! hahahaha (evil laughs) i hope you read this.though it's a boring, stupid, melodramatic description of ME*

Uhmm. Im this kind of person whose totally RANDOM!I mean a 101%.
I don’t know why. I sort of adopt what is in. Heeeeeeeep! Wait! That doesn’t mean I actually those eeekie stuffs
Like drinking alcohol, smoking and whatsoever.
What I mean by being this so called in…
Is being able to adapt what my environment’s attitude is.
I mean uhm…If I’m placed in a situation I can easily blend to it.
Honestly, I am just very simple.
Basic things can satisfy and make me happy :D
I once belonged to a group of intellectually?-Gifted but idiotic-natured people called “ CREAM of the CRAP “.
They say it's the first section in cthi? well hmm... i guess but i don't feel that way.
I'm just lucky to pass the node exam(which i find useless hehe) and acquire the STRESS, PRESSURE and HUGE EXPECTATIONS from the advance subjects with different teachers.
I don't listen to the teachers, i don't study for exams, i pass projects late ,i skip classes, i come late to school everyday, i don't go to school when i feel like it, i even give false reasons to that! hahaha. BUT
Good thing I’m through with it. I actually GRADUATED from it ahahhaha… such an achievement.
I find KEKS hunting a very difficult yet worthwhile hobby
hahaha hahaha haha(that’s what makes me a BI)
I see to it that I can see one every day! Hahaha hahaha haha
(compliments to ena!!! She loves to introduce one whenever you want !).

Another side of me is kind of realistic ( ‘coz the other just plainly stupid I make my own world.) I’m an open-minded person.
I try to understand every person that comes in and out of my life… their problems, environment and attitude because that’s what makes them who they are. I do that basically because I don’t want to judge them. The truth is I’m afraid of being judged or I just want to appear neutral to everyone. I can’t help to fish compliments (I am very true to it) I just don’t know why. Maybe I just lack of it.I’m not so close to my family nor to anybody because as what I have said I want to appear neutral. BUT! I want to stand out! Yet I am afraid to do so T_T.
I am very addicted to movies tackling about natural calamities where in science has more input in it.I love 10.5 and 10.5 Apocalypse! I recommend those two movies. (watch it and you’ll know it). Aside from the latter reason, I just love those movies because I’m amazed by the courage of the rescuers. They actually risk their lives for others. A very good example of it is the Perfect Storm. I admire the navy, air force, military rescuers.I wanna be one Someday! I always dreamt of being the Doctor Soldier during wars!
but I do not hope wars to come! I wanna become a part of 911. (honestly). Haaay that was easy for me to tell about it but I’m actually a coward just thinking the challenges you encounter to attain it. I hate challenges. (*sigh*) NO! I don’t hate challenges but rather I hate failing the challenge. I’m afraid of failures, though I believe that can make me a better person…
Currently I am constructing a new or just let me say a better me!
A Jenny that speaks her own ideas.
A Jenny that fights for what she believes is Right.
And a coward Jenny that wants to prove something to create a change.

too much drama. T_T. hahaha

my blog banner

2008-06-03T17:58:00.000-07:00

toink.
it's akward i know :D hahaha
the original was supposed to be until my pic only.
but it looks stupid as a banner so i added some brushes.
hahahaha...
i rushed it so thats how it looked like.
i still love it. :D
hahaha

photoshop fever.

2008-06-02T08:54:00.000-07:00

weee.

i lurve photoshop :D

just amazing.

makes me go insane. :D

i'm still learning though. hahaha

but i love it.

i'll show you one of my animated

banner for my classmate, patrik,.

he asked for a favor to make him

a banner. well.. its my hobby.

so i agreed. :D.

here it is :

toink.

2008-05-28T23:34:00.000-07:00

sheesh!
that was weird.
hahaha...

I didn't feel posting to my blog
for a while.
arrgh!

i feel blank.

weeee... fire!!!

2008-05-09T03:53:00.000-07:00

hahahhaha.....

i'm sooo happy coz i'm very very lucky today!!! weee!!!
hahahahaha......

Around 4 pm, my aunt's boarding house and some boarding houses to were burned!!

Thank God that everybody is safe :D especially the keks!! hahahaha

Around 6 pm when their landlord(my aunt's friend) asked permission to my mom(well he called her on the phone) if ever they could stay at our house for the meantime. :D weee. my mom agreed ofcourse :D

hahaha...
i'm just so happy that they will be sleepy in put house(in different room of course).
I just can;t believe it... keks in our house!! weee.. hahahahhahahahahahha

BWAHAHAHAHAAHHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH*evil laughs*

errr... college.

2008-05-06T17:02:00.001-07:00

T_T....

I'm now facing a new episode in my life.
hahahaha....
I'm already at college!!!
that's 101%!!!

I just enrolled last May 6, 2008. hahaha..
so tiring yet fulfilling.
I have never encountered such hilarious day.
hahahaha...

I am an official San Pedro College BS in Nursing Freshman
(i don't really like my course though*sigh*)
I had my id right after i enrolled.. weeee

I'm quite nervous yet excited.
A lot of questions are popping into my mind.

Oh dear. I just hope that i'll achieve my goal this college :D

too bad.

2008-05-05T04:36:00.000-07:00

may 5, 2008....

7:30 am..

i woke up.

i've been idle for about 10 minutes.

my mother went inside my room.

She said i have to leave immediately.

i was shocked.

i ran into the bathroom.

I took a bath.

I opened my closet.

I put on my clothes.

I asked for money.

She hesitantly gave me.

I got out of our house.

I rode the tricycle.

I rode the jeepney.

I walked to the apartment.

I looked for my good moral.

But it was nowhere to be found.

I went to the school(DCNHS).

I asked for one.

I went to principal's office.

The principal saw me at once.

She said she will not sign my good moral.

I wanted to cry.

She will not sign until the narrative report is done.

I was flabbergasted.

I said jeremiah has submitted it before.

She said she hasn't received any.

I was put on the spot.

I said i'll contact jeremiah and ask him why.

I promised to give a report tomorrow.

I left the office and sighed.

I saw myla and karen.

They said jeremiah will come.

I waited for him for an hour.

And yes! he finally came.

I asked him where's the report.

He said he haven't printed it yet.

I was shocked and annoyed.

Coz he told me he gave it before.

He gave to the principal of course.

Yet he said it was just a joke.

I got angry.

I thought i was a fool.

I believed in his unworthy words.

What can i expect he's a politician.

I wanted to pass the report today.

But the principal has the meeting with the board.

So i went home depressed.

I can't endure the stress.

I have no confidence to face the principal tomorrow.

What will i do???

It wasn't my fault.

But why am i the accused???

I have no choice.

But to pass the report tomorrow.

To avail my good moral.

I have to do it.

Coz i'll be enrolling tomorrow.

It's my last chance in SPC.

Or else i can't school.

I must face the consequence.

I have to be strong and brave.

Please help me LORD.

fun with cuzins

2008-05-02T01:45:00.000-07:00

yep.yep.

yesterday. may1

the story goes like this....

last april 30, 2008 we invited our relatives to comeover to our house for a thanksgiving dinner(too early?) hahahaha.. my aunt and her family together with my other 2 little cousins slept over in our house.

May 1, 2008. another ordinary thursday. my little cousins had their swimming pool party at out house!! hahaha... they had this portable little swimming pool filled with water and tada! they bathe like crazy. hehehe

but later that afternoon, our pipe bursted!!!! it was the fault of the truck driver who carelessly drove his way to our house... T_T

however, when my uncles and my father were fixing it we took a bath and played with the water (oooh... sorry mother earth) hahaahha.. we really had a great time. :D

i love to do that over and over again. I had some bonding time with my little cousins. They were so playful :D

see the video:

heeeep!! my story isn't finished yet..... that evening after my relatives went home.... the DCWD arrived to fix the broken water pipe... then while i was in the middle of watching the scenario, my brother asked me... "Ate ano yung ginagawa ng aso sa isang aso?"... when i looked at it. Ahahahahahahah!!!! i started to laugh so hard that my little brother started to be confused he kept on asking me why. I just said i don't know but i actually do. hahah the dogs were so horny! hahahaha thaht's why they had. you know :Dhahahhaha.... i took a pic of it though it wasnt so clear.

take a look:

hahaha... i just had a great time:D

post

2008-04-28T22:54:00.000-07:00

i'll post today

i actually and honestly don't know what date is today :)

hahahaha....

i dont care :D

talking bout stuffs,

i dunno. i'm just stupid today.

i don't have anything in mind right now.

p.s.

just wanna feature the onion heads:D

they're so cute :D

i'm back :D topic:sort of scouting.

2008-04-28T03:05:00.000-07:00

hahaha....
it's been two weeks that i haven't been posting here in my bloggie :D
hehehehe...
actually the reason is i had a dengue fever :(
soo bad.
i wasn't able to enroll on my scheduled date but thanks
to my mom, she was able to move it. hahahha
the power of MOMS! hahahahha
but the most devastating part is...
I wasn't able to serve during the 5th National Rover Moot!!
huhuhuhuhuhuh.....
(sayang ang mga keks.... ug si..... ) huhuhuhuhhuhuh
it was my dream to become a staff at that camp!!!!!
huhuhuhuhuhuuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuu

but while i was SICK, i had the chance to make some realizations in my life
maybe, it wasn't really my dream after all!
I wasn't able to serve but i don't feel so bad.
I just feel ok.. hahaha....
being a scout doesn't mean by merely joining and becoming

staffs during campings and being very BOASTFUL(without even knowing it) that you had a high position in your unit.(i mean duh!!!!!! there are some officers and alumni out there that still feel they are still our ma'ams and sirs. Duh!!!!! and some people think that they are the most important scout in the council! wake up! your just a student! they've been running this organization for a hundred years and your still in heaven? or hell that time. so don't think they can't go on without you fcuk off!)

*sorry bout that. i just wanna burst my emotions*

back to the topic....

Scouting is:

actually keeping, spreading and applying the values and the knowledge

that i have learned. :D

as the saying goes...

Once a Scout, Always a Scout :D

hahaha.

p.s.

i hope she reads this :D

dental char2 day!

2008-04-09T03:11:00.000-07:00

hahaha..
i just had my dental whatever you may call it :D today.
hehehe....
i had it cleaned and " gipa-pasta"(sorry don't know the scientific term hehe)

well...
it was my first time..
i was quite nervous coz im afraid of pain and blood!!!! hahahaha

I arrived at the clinic around 11 am and i was on the hot seat around 1 pm.
so many customers! yeah :)

It took the doctor 3!!! hours!!! for my teeth! haha...
(that wasn't suprising, she had a telebabad call within my dental char2)
She's just so annoying T_T
It was so hard opening your mouth for that very long time
I thought I will have a lock jaw T_T
i haven't eaten my breakfast and lunch pa
!!!

My dental char2 finished around 4 pm!! (See?? how long was it??)
and it really cost alot!!
I thought my parents would kill me for having a bill of 4,000.
Hahahahahaha.....

After that I had my check up regarding my cough T_T
I was soo stupid whenever the doctor asks me how long was my cough, what was the color of the phlegm.
I look to my mom and see if shee can answer!! hahaha

After that, we bought medcines and I ate my BREAKFAST.LUNCH.DINNER!!! all in one! hahaha.. T_T

So that was it..
lesson learned:
"Eat before going to the doctor!" hahahaha

P.S. To be followed is my picture!with my new clean teeth! hahaha

lipat bahay. :D

2008-04-07T15:45:00.000-07:00

yes yes!!

we're transferring to an new house!!! Oh I mean they only. T_T. Our new house is quite far from the downtown. hehehe....I'll still be living in our apartment for 4 years!! and its going to be a boarding house. I'll live with the new boarders which all of them were girls *sigh* no keks. T_T and with by younger brother.

Currently, they're busy transferring our things, etc. while me?? I'm sitting in front of this computer and blogging. hahahaha... I just don't like carrying heavy stuffs.. why should I?

Anyway, I'm out of words. hehehe..
till next. :)

farewell party.?

2008-04-07T03:41:00.000-07:00

oh yeah :D

we had our farwell party today, uhmm april 7,2008. hahahaha uhm honestly I cant call it a farewell it's rather more of an outing. Our first and i hope not to be the last outing. I haven't felt the essence of it. hahaha... there were lots of killjoys.argh! it just proves that we were not that really united. But looking into the brighter side, a lot of us actually joined!!! YEY!!! I was expecting only 15-20 classmates coz the venue is quite far. I mean it's really far!!!hahahaha.. I enjoyed more the preparation than the "outing" itself. hahahaha. I was stupid for waking up around 7:30 am.( hehehe our plan was to see each other at the central bank around 6 am) hahaha. Anyway, they end up going at our house. hehe...misay, ruben,adelle,sheena and i were responsible for the food and the souvenir(actually it was we who voluntereed what can you expect from our classmates??? especially the PRESIDENT and the VICE... *sigh* as the secretary i have to work) back to the topic. the food and the tarp were the only preparations we had. a program was planned but it was just a thought. hehehehe..
I was happy yet annoyed walking far distances over and over for the food and the tarp. We actually toured the Gaisano South mall during that time.. hahaha just to kill the time ocz we were waiting for the things we need. It's just like all of a sudden were so obsessed with the number 11. hahaha.. everything we say we find ways to look for the 11. (sort of a resemblance form the movie number 23). our card number was 38 so 3+8=11, the plate number of the bus was 38=3+8=11, the truck was 713 7+1+3=11, the road we've gone was km 11, hahaha... we observed all these! :)

Now that everything is over, i'll surely miss my classmates!!!.. we've been together for 4 years and we've shared alot of trials, foolishness and happiness!. I'll miss HighSchool life! It was the best :D

Introducing MYSELF

2008-04-06T06:36:00.000-07:00

Me??

What about me??

Uhmm. Im this kind of person whose totally RANDOM!I mean a 101%.

I don’t know why. I sort of adopt what is in.
Eeeeeeeeep! Wait! That doesn’t mean I actually those eeekie stuffs

Like drinking alcohol, smoking and whatsoever.

What I mean by being this so called in…

Is being able to adopt what my environment’s attitude is.

I mean uhm…If I’m placed in a situation I can easily blend to it.

Honestly, I am just very simple.

Basic things can satisfy and make me happy :D

I once belonged to a group of intellectually?-Gifted but idiotic-natured people called “ CREAM of the CRAP “.

That’s why the lives of those people they are also CRAP!

They are just the façade to cover the crap beneath it.

Good thing I’m through with it. I actually GRADUATED from it ahahhaha… such an achievement.

I find KEKS hunting a very difficult yet worthwhile hobby

hahaha hahaha haha(that’s what makes me a BI)

I see to it that I can see one every day! Hahaha hahaha haha

(compliments to ena!!! She loves to introduce one whenever you want !).

Another side of me is kinda realistic ( ‘coz the other just plainly stupid I make my own world.) I’m an open-minded person.

I try to understand every person that comes in and out of my life… their problems, environment and attitude because that’s what makes them who they are. I do that basically because I don’t want to judge them. The truth is I’m afraid of being judged or I just want to appear neutral to everyone. I can’t help to fish compliments (I am very true to it) I just don’t know why. Maybe I just lack of it.I’m not so close to my family nor to anybody because as what I have said I want to appear neutral. BUT! I want to stand out! Yet I am afraid to do so T_T.

I am very addicted to movies tackling about natural calamities where in science has more input in it.I love 10.5 and 10.5 Apocalypse! I recommend those two movies. (watch it and you’ll know it). Aside from the latter reason, I just love those movies because I’m amazed by the courage of the rescuers. They actually risk their lives for others. A very good example of it is the Perfect Storm. I admire the navy, air force, military rescuers.I wanna be one Someday! I always dreamt of being the Doctor Soldier during wars!

but I do not hope wars to come!Haaay that was easy for me to tell about it but I’m actually a coward just thinking the challenges you encounter to attain it. I hate challenges. (*sigh*) NO! I don’t hate challenges but rather I hate failing the challenge. I’m afraid of failures, though I believe that can make me a better person…

Currently I am constructing a new or just let me say a better me!

A Jenny that speaks her own ideas.

A Jenny that fights for what she believes is Right.

And a coward Jenny that wants to prove something to create a change.